when i grow up

one thing about myself that slightly annoys me is how i seem to constantly be jumping from one thing to the next. i mean, it's a pretty unattractive quality buuuuut... i have it. eek. one relatively large element related to this is what i want to do with my life. i've never known what i wanted to be when i grew up; either that, or i never could make up my mind. one day something sounded good and the next it was this, and the next it was that. is this just me? does anyone else struggle with that? how do you decide?

so quite in tune with my character, i was eating breakfast the other morning and started feeling very strongly about a particular interest i've caught onto recently - nutrition and how our bodies were created to function; with a focus on organic, preservative free, non-gmo foods. i have no idea exactly how i could turn this interest into a career, but it's something that i at least want to look a little more into. here are a couple struggles i have with this choice right off the bat,

• i tend to enjoy things that have black and white, blanket answers and this seems to be something that will be different for every body and/or lifestyle
• i struggle with how hard core i would want to delve into something like this because of time, materials, expense, practicality...
• i would do all of this for health reasons of course, doing my best to prevent diseases that are so common in our world today (most probably a direct result of what we are putting into our bodies). i know this reason might sound strange, but a thought that often crosses my mind when i compare my few healthy habits to those of someone quite the opposite is, 'what's to say that despite all my hard work, i die in a car accident or still get a life threatening illness, and they make it into their 90's still smokin' and eating a big mac per day?'
• there are no guarantees. and i like guarantees 

of course there is also financial advising... probably my most constant 'what i want to be when i grow up'. at least until tomorrow ;-)