When you just need to get away...

I need a place where it doesn't matter. Where it doesn't matter what kind of car I drive, or what clothes I wear. A place where my opinion is allowed to be different than hers. A place where I am loved all the time. A place where I need nothing and worry not. A place where I am not intimidated, but rather accepted. I need You.

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Does it make me better than you because I eat healthy, am not overweight, work out, don't smoke/drink? As opposed to you who stresses, eats horribly, smokes, drinks too much. If I were to die in a car accident some day and you were to live, does it matter one bit that I did all those things to work to take care of myself? There's something missing, there's a hole. I think I know who can fill that void. The world tries to tell me that I'm a better person in the long run because I take care of myself better than you. But when you're at my funeral, what made me better?

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You know when you just can't help but complain? Well... maybe that's not the complete truth - more like, when you just don't want to keep from complaining? I don't know why I want to so badly. And it's weird because I don't even know what I'd complain about. What's the matter with me? It's just nice to write out everything and know that noone but me has to read it. It's just this job... when I really think about it, I like it and I'm excited. I actually get to make commercials for people that will air on TV and hopefully sell their product better than anything else! I have a reason to learn this new editing software that I've always wanted to get my hands on and I get experience communicating with clients - a necessary but scary skill =) I don't know if I get too worked up about little things but it seems like the little things that I don't know are turning into big things. I like working on computers and editing and being creative but right along side that is a requirement for me to know all the "little/techinical" things that I never learned. Like resolution and frame rate and burning formats and everything that goes along with those. And that's just the computer stuff, then there's the cameras. That's a whole nother story. Lord willing someday I will be able to learn it all but I just don't know. I know people would say that it'll come to me while training, just ask questions. It seems alot harder than that. I feel like I've been put in a position that I'm not ready for. I don't know those things that are considered "basic" to my boss. And maybe I'm wrong, maybe he'd care less and wouldn't look down on me at all if I said I didn't know what all those things meant but I'm still too afraid to ask. This is dumb, and not helping so I'm outta here. One good thing about today is that my dad got his shirt in the mail RIGHT before he left for Canada. When I was home on break he comented on my "eh?" shirt and said he should get one before he goes to Canada. I thought of it last night again and they hadn't received it yet so I was annoyed b/c what's the point of getting it after his trip?? So anyways, I prayed about it (remembering that God cares about the things I care about) and it definitly came this afternoon right before he left. Praising the Lord in good times and it bad....